*Excerpt from a journal entry I wrote in my offline journal on Sunday. Needless to say since I wrote it in My journal I wasn't planning on putting it here but since I have nothing else to do I might as well add it. Also please forgive the teenage angst, (I usually don't rant about this type of thing) ,as well as my blatantly obvious religious references.*
Guess what! Friday was Prom! Guess what again! I didn't get asked. Big surprise. I've been 16 now for almost 7 months now and have been on one date. Even better, that one date was to Preference and I was the one who did the asking and the guy I went with probably never would have asked me to a dance anyway. The funny thing is that I have no shortage of guyfriends who are not "going out" with anyone at this point and therefore would be able to ask me out, but it still hasn't happened yet, and you know why? Because going on a date with me would simply be "too weird" because all of them tend to see me as their "little sister" and therefore not female. When I turned 16 I even jokingly hired all of my guyfriends to be my "big brothers", meaning that if any guy breaks my heart they have an obligation to teach him a lesson. The only problem with that plan however is that they will never get the chance to, as I'm never going to be in that position in the first place. I'm not and never will be the "most popular girl in school" as I tend not to wear makeup or act boy crazy all the time, and I don't want to be. I can't help the way I feel, Every time I've had a crush on someone it makes things suddenly awkward between the two of us. Is it a crime not to want to be so obsessed with someone that I follow them around like a mindless puppy, with no intelligent thought going through my head as it's so consumed by images of "the one". Is it selfish of me to never want to be in a position where I like someone who can't stand being around me? I especially don't want my affections for someone to annoy him.
*sighs*
It really doesn't matter much though. I'm never going to go out with someone, I'm never going to get proposed to, I'm never going to find "the one", I'm never going to get married, I'm never going to have a family of my own and never going to have a "happily ever after" so why bother trying? On Wednesday we played "the game of life" for Mutual. We were supposed to get there, find our partner and continue on our merry way through the stations they had set up. My only problem was that, though I was the second person there, my partner (who was supposed to be the second guy there) seemed to have mysteriously disappeared. While the other happy couples (including several of my friends) wandered off to start their new lives together, I searched in vain for my partner until I was told to just continue the game alone. Naturally I did so and spent the game wandering around on my own. Along the way I got my education and was the 2nd person to get my PHD after Shambray (who I'd dragged along with me to the activity),earned quite a bit of money, paid my tithing, got a temple recommend, went on a mission and was generally very successful and Molly Mormon-ish, that is until I died. At that point everyone went to "heaven" where they separated us up into married and unmarried people. Of the very few unmarried people there, Shambray and I were among them (her husband claimed that he was going on a mission and never returned). Reflecting on the activity later didn't much improve my mood. All it did was give me the realization that that's probably how my life is going to turn out. I'm going to spend quite a bit of my life looking for that special someone, knowing he's out there somewhere and yet not knowing why he's not looking for me too. I'll end up going to college and earning high honors there, then after I will be highly successful in any job I choose. Yet, through it all I'm going to wonder what's wrong with me and ponder on why I haven't gotten married yet. Did "the one" actually meet me and decide I wasn't pretty or popular or docile enough for him? What could I have done better? Even if I was the most famous or most wealthy person on earth it won't matter in the eternal scheme of things, and any joy or gratification I receive will be small in comparison to what I could have as a wife or mother. Today I was sleeping on the couch and had this really weird dream, in which my dad said that I would "Raise a child". He really seemed to be sincere and I want to believe it but I can't totally allow myself to ( during this dream my dad also told Shelli that she was going to become a soda addict, so I do have quite a bit of doubt to the dream's validity). I wish I knew for sure if anyone even considered me to be dating material. Knowing me however I would probably be the only girl in the history of the universe to go to BYU and not come away with my M.R.M. (Mrs. Returned Missionary) Degree. It's partially for that reason that I'm not really considering going to BYU. *sighs*
That's pretty much all I wrote before I decided that if I continued much longer I'd be verging on suicidal.
I hate myself.
Tuesday, May 4, 2004
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
Not three wishes, but three questions.
Yoinked from someone's journal. It looks entertaining.
I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less.
Ask me anything you want. Really. I'll answer anything.
Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.
*note* If I don't get many questions from different people I may answer more than 3*
I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less.
Ask me anything you want. Really. I'll answer anything.
Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.
*note* If I don't get many questions from different people I may answer more than 3*
Friday, April 16, 2004
Gullible is writen on the ceiling!!!!!!!!
I'm beginning to think my family is inherently evil.
Yesterday during dinner, Joseph, my 6 year old brother asked me if my dad had ever used his gun at any time besides during his Army/Air force training. I was slightly taken aback by this sudden question and replied that yes he had used it several times. Joseph, obviously very interested in the subject, asked what those times were. Shelli, with a deathly serious look on her face, then pipes up and says "Well Joseph, you never knew this but, we used to have another brother named Bob..." (At this point it was all I could do to keep from laughing) "And you see, well, one day Bob was really bad and dad took his gun and shot him."
Joseph looks up at Shelli with an awed look on his face. "Where did you bury him?" he asked.
"We never knew." I answered with a saddened look on my face. "We just woke up one morning and he was gone. Dad buried him while we were all asleep."
"So you don't know where he is?" Joseph asked with a shocked look on his face.
"Nope." I said
How old was he? Joseph asked. "Was he 6 like me?"
"Yeah he was. He even acted a lot like you."
"What did he do that was so bad?" Joseph asked.
That's just the thing! He didn't really do anything that bad. He was about as bad as you are but Dad just blew up."
(At this point Joseph just stared at Shelli and I awed at what he was hearing and Shelli and I were doing everything in our power not to burst out laughing at the look on his face.)
"Ani and I are the only ones who even remember him." Shelli said in an attempt to solidify our claim incase Joseph happened to go ask some of the other kids about it later.
"Yeah" I said. "But don't mention it to Dad, he gets really touchy whenever someone mentions Bob to him. Who knows he might get so upset that he might shoot you too!"
"He might?" Joseph asked startled.
"He just might, it's why you haven't heard about Bob before." I said. "Mom also gets upset when we talk about it so don't mention it to her, and the other kids don't know about it either but we feel we can trust you to not mention it to mom and dad, so don't mention it to them either."
"Ok."Joseph replied timidly.
This continued on for awhile while Shelli and I continued to elaborate on the story and Joseph asked some more questions ("Does dad get upset when we watch Vegitales and bob the tomato comes on? Is that why dad doesn't like us singing Vegitales songs?" and so forth). Finally Shelli and I ended the conversation and finished eating.
About a half an hour later my dad came home and Shelli and I ran outside to tell him about our "little joke" before Joseph could mention it to him (thereby getting us into trouble). My Dad, upon hearing of Josephs gullibility, laughed along with us and didn't mention our "little joke" to Joseph and tell him of the falsehood of it.
Now Joseph is at times gullible but is really a smart kid and felt he needed confirmation from dad before he could fully believe it, so today after dinner was over and my dad was done eating and was sitting at his computer, Joseph seized the moment and sat down by my dad.
"Dad?" He asked. "Yesterday Shelli and Ani were telling me that we had a brother named Bob and you shot him-
"Joseph I don't want you talking about it." My dad interrupted. "That's not something you should be talking about. It's a very delicate subject matter and you shouldn't be mentioning it."
(At this point I was almost paralyzed with suppressed laughter at the shocked look on Joseph's face)
"And you!" My dad said, turning to me with a harsh look on his face. "You shouldn't be mentioning it to anyone either, is that understood?"
"Yes." I replied meekly still restraining my laughter.
"Good." said my dad and turned back to Joseph. "Now go do your dishes." he said to him
As soon as Joseph was out of hearing both my dad and I burst out laughing. "Poor little guy!" I laughed. Now he really thinks it's true. He's going to be emotionally scarred for the rest of his life!" To this statement my dad only grinned and I returned, still laughing, to my computer and started typing this. I have no idea if Joseph will ever learn the truth about Bob.
Yesterday during dinner, Joseph, my 6 year old brother asked me if my dad had ever used his gun at any time besides during his Army/Air force training. I was slightly taken aback by this sudden question and replied that yes he had used it several times. Joseph, obviously very interested in the subject, asked what those times were. Shelli, with a deathly serious look on her face, then pipes up and says "Well Joseph, you never knew this but, we used to have another brother named Bob..." (At this point it was all I could do to keep from laughing) "And you see, well, one day Bob was really bad and dad took his gun and shot him."
Joseph looks up at Shelli with an awed look on his face. "Where did you bury him?" he asked.
"We never knew." I answered with a saddened look on my face. "We just woke up one morning and he was gone. Dad buried him while we were all asleep."
"So you don't know where he is?" Joseph asked with a shocked look on his face.
"Nope." I said
How old was he? Joseph asked. "Was he 6 like me?"
"Yeah he was. He even acted a lot like you."
"What did he do that was so bad?" Joseph asked.
That's just the thing! He didn't really do anything that bad. He was about as bad as you are but Dad just blew up."
(At this point Joseph just stared at Shelli and I awed at what he was hearing and Shelli and I were doing everything in our power not to burst out laughing at the look on his face.)
"Ani and I are the only ones who even remember him." Shelli said in an attempt to solidify our claim incase Joseph happened to go ask some of the other kids about it later.
"Yeah" I said. "But don't mention it to Dad, he gets really touchy whenever someone mentions Bob to him. Who knows he might get so upset that he might shoot you too!"
"He might?" Joseph asked startled.
"He just might, it's why you haven't heard about Bob before." I said. "Mom also gets upset when we talk about it so don't mention it to her, and the other kids don't know about it either but we feel we can trust you to not mention it to mom and dad, so don't mention it to them either."
"Ok."Joseph replied timidly.
This continued on for awhile while Shelli and I continued to elaborate on the story and Joseph asked some more questions ("Does dad get upset when we watch Vegitales and bob the tomato comes on? Is that why dad doesn't like us singing Vegitales songs?" and so forth). Finally Shelli and I ended the conversation and finished eating.
About a half an hour later my dad came home and Shelli and I ran outside to tell him about our "little joke" before Joseph could mention it to him (thereby getting us into trouble). My Dad, upon hearing of Josephs gullibility, laughed along with us and didn't mention our "little joke" to Joseph and tell him of the falsehood of it.
Now Joseph is at times gullible but is really a smart kid and felt he needed confirmation from dad before he could fully believe it, so today after dinner was over and my dad was done eating and was sitting at his computer, Joseph seized the moment and sat down by my dad.
"Dad?" He asked. "Yesterday Shelli and Ani were telling me that we had a brother named Bob and you shot him-
"Joseph I don't want you talking about it." My dad interrupted. "That's not something you should be talking about. It's a very delicate subject matter and you shouldn't be mentioning it."
(At this point I was almost paralyzed with suppressed laughter at the shocked look on Joseph's face)
"And you!" My dad said, turning to me with a harsh look on his face. "You shouldn't be mentioning it to anyone either, is that understood?"
"Yes." I replied meekly still restraining my laughter.
"Good." said my dad and turned back to Joseph. "Now go do your dishes." he said to him
As soon as Joseph was out of hearing both my dad and I burst out laughing. "Poor little guy!" I laughed. Now he really thinks it's true. He's going to be emotionally scarred for the rest of his life!" To this statement my dad only grinned and I returned, still laughing, to my computer and started typing this. I have no idea if Joseph will ever learn the truth about Bob.
Thursday, April 15, 2004
Wheeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Actual Journal time!
Hmm ^^;
Well it's been a while since I updated
...
Ok, now that the intro's over with,
Spring break was Awesome ^^; (and I know I'm a little late, I was just getting over the hangover ~_^)
Wednesday:
School: Drama-Got our scene pretty much finalized (we just need to memorize it now) and goofed off for most of the class instead of practicing for state like I should have been *slapslap*
Art- I hate drawing chairs, stools, or anything like unto whicker baskets. Unfortunately we were supposed to be drawing a stack of stools, and as if that wasn't bad enough The student teacher made us draw the negative space (as in not the stools but the blank space in between them) which made for an interesting composition. I did however make several good comebacks and "Ooh! Burn!" insults with the guys sitting next to me, to which they responded with several of their own, as well as having Sam (one of the guys sitting next to me) discover that I do indeed have a Mary Poppins style genuinely bottomless backpack. The contents included a Rubix cube, a couple of bouncy balls, a few miniature toy thingies that you have to put together, a tape player, earphones (the original item that Sam asked me if I had) numerous sets of cards, random food items, and, to top it all off, a 2 liter bottle of Black Cherry Shasta soda ^^; good stuff
Debate- Party!!(and the reason why I had the soda in my backpack) After spending most of it playing Catch Phrase and other such games while devouring tons of junkfood, Mrs. Bevan asked me to go down to the copy center to pick up the flyers for the midnight movie. After going down, getting the copies and cutting them I started on my crusade and handed them out to every person I passed during lunch.
Lunch- Handed out lots of flyers in the lunchroom, only to come back in about 5 minutes to find that most of the people I had handed them to had simply left them on the tables and left. Undaunted, I went around, picked up all the flyers I could and proceeded to re-hand them out. (Some call me devoted, some call me optimistic, some just call me insane.) In doing so I also missed lunch but due to our debate party I wasn't very in the mood for food at the time.
American Studies- Took a test that I wasn't prepared for and corrected it, then Mr. Birrell Stuffed us all in a closet to watch a couple of movies on the Holocaust. By the time we finished the "closet" (which was actually the small hallway off of Birrell's room) was hot (about 10-20 degrees hotter than Mr. Birrell's room) and smelled pretty similar to the Holocaust. Mr. Birrell eventually did let us go free but it was a rather interesting experience.
After school was over I went home and played on the computer while reveling in the fact that I had a good long weekend ahead of me. Marianne called later and decided to come over a little early (she, Shelli and I were planning on going to the midnight movie that night), we then left my house and went to a few different stores trying to find one that was open at 11:30 at night so we'd have food for the movies. Our search was to no avail however and we ended up buying the expensive theater popcorn and drinks.*muttermutter* We(Shelli and I) did however have a very good time watching The Prince & Me which has got to be one of the biggest chick flicks of all time(not to mention the one with the most grammatically incorrect title) but fortunately it was a very well made chick flick. Almost needless to say Marianne did not come and see the chick flick with us *sticks tongue out at Marianne* but she did stay and wait for us after her movie finished and graciously gave us a ride back home. After that it's all kinda fuzzy as I was asleep on my feet.
Thursday: The beginning of spring break
Woke up at about 2:30 in the afternoon much to my surprise (My family doesn't let me sleep in that long. Ever. Finally got out of bed and immediately got on the computer and turned on my MSN. While on MSN I talked to a few people and Shambray asked to come over. So of course I was willing and my parents allowed it! *beams* We spent the day wandering around my house playing with my pony (little brat) and I tried on my huge collection of costumes for Shambray (she seemed kinda shocked as I pulled them out of my closet ^^;)and my 4 year old little sister Miri who came down to bring Shambray flowers from the backyard, which, to our surprise, smelled like fish (and no I am not kidding, Shambray can testify). We later called Shambray's mom to see if she could sleep over and once again the answer was yes (by this time it was about 11:00). Shambray, my sister Shelli and I then drove over to Shambray's house, got her stuff, then stopped by smiths on the way home to pick up stuff for Shelli's B-day party the next day. After getting home we filled Easter eggs with candy (although about half of the candy never made it into the eggs^^; yum), spent a while trying to fix my Rubix cube (that Marianne messed up XP ), and talked until about 5:30 in the morning.
Friday: Shelli's Birthday party!
Woke up, got food. Shelli and I then spent a while calling people reminding them about my sister's party (including many people who said they'd come but later didn't *CoughAdamCough*. We tried calling Addison only to find that he was sick in bed, so rather than sit around and do nothing we decided to go visit him while we were out getting last minuet groceries and dropping Shambray off at home, which became an interesting experience as Shambray had a car with her, so we decided to drive to Kholers (Shambray in her car and Shelli and I in the one I use), go to Dollar store for a card and anything else we found interesting, dropped it of at Addison's house, went back to Kholers and Shambray went home to get some sleep before the party while Shelli and I got more food for the party and then drove off to the thanksgiving point theater because I had left my wallet there after the midnight movie. After waiting in the theater for about an hour for the employees to actually give me back my wallet (during which time I waited in three lines to talk to them and at every turn was sent somewhere else, often to the exact people I had been sent to before) I finally managed to talk to the manager and get my much needed wallet back. I then went home, played the computer for a while and cleaned the house while simultaneously making food and calling people (go me). People then got there and we spent a while outside on the tramp waiting for people until we finally went inside for food. Soon thereafter the games begun, which consisted of Apples to Apples (a word game) and several interesting card games. We then went downstairs and played Murder in the dark while my siblings were upstairs hiding the Easter eggs for our egg hunt. Unsurprisingly the eggs were found rather quickly, and the candy inside was quickly consumed (at least on my part). Then people started leaving (as it was about 11:00) and Shambray and I decided to go drop off the remaining people (except for Marianne and Alyssa who were sleeping over) so that Shambray could talk to Addison. Marianne Shelli and Alyssa decided that they wanted to come so they followed us and thus a mad car chase came about. With shambray and I trying to get away and Marianne in no way willing to loose us, we spent about a half an hour speeding around the streets of Alpine in the middle of the night. Finally Shambray admitted defeat and she and I managed to convince Marianne to give up pursuit. After the coercion was over Shambray and I went over to Addison's house and talked to him till about 12:30 in the morning. Shambray then dropped me off at home and I got scolded by my dad (it wasn't a very bad scolding but it was a scolding nonetheless) and went down to my room and stayed up until about 3:30 talking to Alyssa.
Saturday: Easter egg hunt!
Much to my annoyance I was woken up at about 8:30 by my siblings who insisted that we were all going to and Easter egg hunt at Thanksgiving Point (that I was too old to participate in) So Shelli and I donned our matching "family outing" sweatshirts that my mom made specifically for the purpose of keeping us together and recognizable when we go out as a family, and all of us, including Marianne and Alyssa (who were about as "happy" with being woken up as we were) and piled into our van. We got there only to find that the line was about a mile long. Once we finally got in (after waiting about an hour in the cold wind and morning air) Marianne, Alyssa, Shelli and I went and took a nap on the grass while we waited for the hunt to be over. My poor siblings got trampled by all of the frantic parents shoving Easter eggs into their children's baskets in the frantic rush for eggs that looked a lot like the fiasco with the early registration for the Sophomores-soon to become Juniors (thankfully my parents weren't among them) Mrs. Woolsey described the problem best by stating that most parents in this area (particularly the mothers) are "helicopter parents" meaning that they hover over and save their children from everything. After the hunt we came home had food then Alyssa had to go home so Marianne, Shelli and I went out side and had fun trying to get my pony used to being ridden as she has never been broken in before. She didn't like that much but she is getting much better at behaving (although she did throw me off a couple of times but I keep getting back on her, much to her annoyance). After we got tired of her (and no Aubrey I am not going to send her to the glue factory now since I've ridden her a couple of times, though it is a temptation to do so ~_^) We went inside and generally hung out for the rest of the day until Marianne had to go home.
Sunday; EASTER!
Woke up and went upstairs to my parents room for our holiday lineup (youngest first all the way up to me) and we all trouped down the stairs to find our baskets full of goodies and Easter eggs all over the house. After finding all the eggs (I am a very good finder *beams*) and eating as much candy as we could before breakfast we went to church, came home, had Easter dinner and went to bed.
Monday
Spent the day playing the computer, chatting on MSN and avoiding Homework ^^; that is, until about 11:00 at night when I decided I might want to get it done before I went to school the next morning.
Tuesday: School x_x
School as usual,
Seminary- Good way to start out the day although it was a little slow until we started doing Scripture Mastery Games^^; I still can't wait until Brother Gambrell shows us his Ballroom competition tapes (he used to be a professional dancer and he promised to show us some of his tapes one of theses days) but who knows how long it will be.
Aerobics-My day had been pretty good up to this point. Ordinarily it's an ok class and I do have several friends in there but as we hadn't worked out during spring break we probably should have done something relatively easy right? Wrong. We knew from the instant that we came in the class and there was a T.V. at the front of the room that we were in for nothing but trouble. Our fears were confirmed when Mrs. Hansen announced (with a way too enthusiastic look on her face) that we were indeed doing Tae Bo. I swear the only way I got through it was to aim all of my punches and kicks at the T.V. and imagining them brutally mutilating Bill Blanks' overly hypocritical, "you can do it, just push yourself this one last time", constantly not working both sides of the body equally, way too willing to show of his muscles, "I'm watching you" outlook.
Math- Three words. I hate that class.
Lunch- endured Austin Higgley's asking me about Prom and wether I was going or not and being terrified at the look on his face when I replied that I hadn't been asked yet. *muttermutter* I wish my mom would just let me take my little brother (who's only 8 years old and technically not old enough to date yet but I feel that since he's my brother, it's a minor issue) but for some reason she flat out refused when I asked her about it *pouts* and he was so looking forward to going too *chuckles*
American Studies- More talking about the Holocaust which made me slightly depressed for the rest of the day.
Went home, got on the computer, turned on MSN (anyone starting to see a pattern here?)ect.
Right now I'm dead tired and will finish this entry tomorrow when I'm actually awake enough to remember what's happened the past few days.
Fare thee well.
Well it's been a while since I updated
...
Ok, now that the intro's over with,
Spring break was Awesome ^^; (and I know I'm a little late, I was just getting over the hangover ~_^)
Wednesday:
School: Drama-Got our scene pretty much finalized (we just need to memorize it now) and goofed off for most of the class instead of practicing for state like I should have been *slapslap*
Art- I hate drawing chairs, stools, or anything like unto whicker baskets. Unfortunately we were supposed to be drawing a stack of stools, and as if that wasn't bad enough The student teacher made us draw the negative space (as in not the stools but the blank space in between them) which made for an interesting composition. I did however make several good comebacks and "Ooh! Burn!" insults with the guys sitting next to me, to which they responded with several of their own, as well as having Sam (one of the guys sitting next to me) discover that I do indeed have a Mary Poppins style genuinely bottomless backpack. The contents included a Rubix cube, a couple of bouncy balls, a few miniature toy thingies that you have to put together, a tape player, earphones (the original item that Sam asked me if I had) numerous sets of cards, random food items, and, to top it all off, a 2 liter bottle of Black Cherry Shasta soda ^^; good stuff
Debate- Party!!(and the reason why I had the soda in my backpack) After spending most of it playing Catch Phrase and other such games while devouring tons of junkfood, Mrs. Bevan asked me to go down to the copy center to pick up the flyers for the midnight movie. After going down, getting the copies and cutting them I started on my crusade and handed them out to every person I passed during lunch.
Lunch- Handed out lots of flyers in the lunchroom, only to come back in about 5 minutes to find that most of the people I had handed them to had simply left them on the tables and left. Undaunted, I went around, picked up all the flyers I could and proceeded to re-hand them out. (Some call me devoted, some call me optimistic, some just call me insane.) In doing so I also missed lunch but due to our debate party I wasn't very in the mood for food at the time.
American Studies- Took a test that I wasn't prepared for and corrected it, then Mr. Birrell Stuffed us all in a closet to watch a couple of movies on the Holocaust. By the time we finished the "closet" (which was actually the small hallway off of Birrell's room) was hot (about 10-20 degrees hotter than Mr. Birrell's room) and smelled pretty similar to the Holocaust. Mr. Birrell eventually did let us go free but it was a rather interesting experience.
After school was over I went home and played on the computer while reveling in the fact that I had a good long weekend ahead of me. Marianne called later and decided to come over a little early (she, Shelli and I were planning on going to the midnight movie that night), we then left my house and went to a few different stores trying to find one that was open at 11:30 at night so we'd have food for the movies. Our search was to no avail however and we ended up buying the expensive theater popcorn and drinks.*muttermutter* We(Shelli and I) did however have a very good time watching The Prince & Me which has got to be one of the biggest chick flicks of all time(not to mention the one with the most grammatically incorrect title) but fortunately it was a very well made chick flick. Almost needless to say Marianne did not come and see the chick flick with us *sticks tongue out at Marianne* but she did stay and wait for us after her movie finished and graciously gave us a ride back home. After that it's all kinda fuzzy as I was asleep on my feet.
Thursday: The beginning of spring break
Woke up at about 2:30 in the afternoon much to my surprise (My family doesn't let me sleep in that long. Ever. Finally got out of bed and immediately got on the computer and turned on my MSN. While on MSN I talked to a few people and Shambray asked to come over. So of course I was willing and my parents allowed it! *beams* We spent the day wandering around my house playing with my pony (little brat) and I tried on my huge collection of costumes for Shambray (she seemed kinda shocked as I pulled them out of my closet ^^;)and my 4 year old little sister Miri who came down to bring Shambray flowers from the backyard, which, to our surprise, smelled like fish (and no I am not kidding, Shambray can testify). We later called Shambray's mom to see if she could sleep over and once again the answer was yes (by this time it was about 11:00). Shambray, my sister Shelli and I then drove over to Shambray's house, got her stuff, then stopped by smiths on the way home to pick up stuff for Shelli's B-day party the next day. After getting home we filled Easter eggs with candy (although about half of the candy never made it into the eggs^^; yum), spent a while trying to fix my Rubix cube (that Marianne messed up XP ), and talked until about 5:30 in the morning.
Friday: Shelli's Birthday party!
Woke up, got food. Shelli and I then spent a while calling people reminding them about my sister's party (including many people who said they'd come but later didn't *CoughAdamCough*. We tried calling Addison only to find that he was sick in bed, so rather than sit around and do nothing we decided to go visit him while we were out getting last minuet groceries and dropping Shambray off at home, which became an interesting experience as Shambray had a car with her, so we decided to drive to Kholers (Shambray in her car and Shelli and I in the one I use), go to Dollar store for a card and anything else we found interesting, dropped it of at Addison's house, went back to Kholers and Shambray went home to get some sleep before the party while Shelli and I got more food for the party and then drove off to the thanksgiving point theater because I had left my wallet there after the midnight movie. After waiting in the theater for about an hour for the employees to actually give me back my wallet (during which time I waited in three lines to talk to them and at every turn was sent somewhere else, often to the exact people I had been sent to before) I finally managed to talk to the manager and get my much needed wallet back. I then went home, played the computer for a while and cleaned the house while simultaneously making food and calling people (go me). People then got there and we spent a while outside on the tramp waiting for people until we finally went inside for food. Soon thereafter the games begun, which consisted of Apples to Apples (a word game) and several interesting card games. We then went downstairs and played Murder in the dark while my siblings were upstairs hiding the Easter eggs for our egg hunt. Unsurprisingly the eggs were found rather quickly, and the candy inside was quickly consumed (at least on my part). Then people started leaving (as it was about 11:00) and Shambray and I decided to go drop off the remaining people (except for Marianne and Alyssa who were sleeping over) so that Shambray could talk to Addison. Marianne Shelli and Alyssa decided that they wanted to come so they followed us and thus a mad car chase came about. With shambray and I trying to get away and Marianne in no way willing to loose us, we spent about a half an hour speeding around the streets of Alpine in the middle of the night. Finally Shambray admitted defeat and she and I managed to convince Marianne to give up pursuit. After the coercion was over Shambray and I went over to Addison's house and talked to him till about 12:30 in the morning. Shambray then dropped me off at home and I got scolded by my dad (it wasn't a very bad scolding but it was a scolding nonetheless) and went down to my room and stayed up until about 3:30 talking to Alyssa.
Saturday: Easter egg hunt!
Much to my annoyance I was woken up at about 8:30 by my siblings who insisted that we were all going to and Easter egg hunt at Thanksgiving Point (that I was too old to participate in) So Shelli and I donned our matching "family outing" sweatshirts that my mom made specifically for the purpose of keeping us together and recognizable when we go out as a family, and all of us, including Marianne and Alyssa (who were about as "happy" with being woken up as we were) and piled into our van. We got there only to find that the line was about a mile long. Once we finally got in (after waiting about an hour in the cold wind and morning air) Marianne, Alyssa, Shelli and I went and took a nap on the grass while we waited for the hunt to be over. My poor siblings got trampled by all of the frantic parents shoving Easter eggs into their children's baskets in the frantic rush for eggs that looked a lot like the fiasco with the early registration for the Sophomores-soon to become Juniors (thankfully my parents weren't among them) Mrs. Woolsey described the problem best by stating that most parents in this area (particularly the mothers) are "helicopter parents" meaning that they hover over and save their children from everything. After the hunt we came home had food then Alyssa had to go home so Marianne, Shelli and I went out side and had fun trying to get my pony used to being ridden as she has never been broken in before. She didn't like that much but she is getting much better at behaving (although she did throw me off a couple of times but I keep getting back on her, much to her annoyance). After we got tired of her (and no Aubrey I am not going to send her to the glue factory now since I've ridden her a couple of times, though it is a temptation to do so ~_^) We went inside and generally hung out for the rest of the day until Marianne had to go home.
Sunday; EASTER!
Woke up and went upstairs to my parents room for our holiday lineup (youngest first all the way up to me) and we all trouped down the stairs to find our baskets full of goodies and Easter eggs all over the house. After finding all the eggs (I am a very good finder *beams*) and eating as much candy as we could before breakfast we went to church, came home, had Easter dinner and went to bed.
Monday
Spent the day playing the computer, chatting on MSN and avoiding Homework ^^; that is, until about 11:00 at night when I decided I might want to get it done before I went to school the next morning.
Tuesday: School x_x
School as usual,
Seminary- Good way to start out the day although it was a little slow until we started doing Scripture Mastery Games^^; I still can't wait until Brother Gambrell shows us his Ballroom competition tapes (he used to be a professional dancer and he promised to show us some of his tapes one of theses days) but who knows how long it will be.
Aerobics-My day had been pretty good up to this point. Ordinarily it's an ok class and I do have several friends in there but as we hadn't worked out during spring break we probably should have done something relatively easy right? Wrong. We knew from the instant that we came in the class and there was a T.V. at the front of the room that we were in for nothing but trouble. Our fears were confirmed when Mrs. Hansen announced (with a way too enthusiastic look on her face) that we were indeed doing Tae Bo. I swear the only way I got through it was to aim all of my punches and kicks at the T.V. and imagining them brutally mutilating Bill Blanks' overly hypocritical, "you can do it, just push yourself this one last time", constantly not working both sides of the body equally, way too willing to show of his muscles, "I'm watching you" outlook.
Math- Three words. I hate that class.
Lunch- endured Austin Higgley's asking me about Prom and wether I was going or not and being terrified at the look on his face when I replied that I hadn't been asked yet. *muttermutter* I wish my mom would just let me take my little brother (who's only 8 years old and technically not old enough to date yet but I feel that since he's my brother, it's a minor issue) but for some reason she flat out refused when I asked her about it *pouts* and he was so looking forward to going too *chuckles*
American Studies- More talking about the Holocaust which made me slightly depressed for the rest of the day.
Went home, got on the computer, turned on MSN (anyone starting to see a pattern here?)ect.
Right now I'm dead tired and will finish this entry tomorrow when I'm actually awake enough to remember what's happened the past few days.
Fare thee well.
Sunday, April 11, 2004
wow...lost people...lost friends...lost us. Everyone read, there are things you all need to see.
wow. what more can i say...wow. everything has gone haywire...not just with me...but everyone. We have all lost direction. i know i can't say anything to help, to uplift your spirits, to take away this pain. i can't do anything, and i HATE feeling helpless! all of you are amazing! i know you don't believe it, espically coming from me, but i HONESTLY truthfully mean it! and I know you probably don't want to hear anymore words...actions would be nice huh?! and we are all just so freakin lazy that none of us get off our butts and take the effort to do those things...me included!! i'm such a hippocrite!
Lou...you are my hero. I love you. TRUELY!! I don't know what i can say to tell how amazing you are! i can't express it...i just can't...it's too much. you've saved my life more than once, i owe you big...and even if i didn't i would pick you as a friend!!! you are cirtianly not just a tag along...NO WAY!! you are way more than that...and if no one else thinks so, just know that i love you, you are my friend, and i would never concider you just a tag along (plus, i know how you feel, i'm no in highschool either) call me, we NEED to hang out. I mean it! (763-7790...you can write it down for the 6th time in your house!! hehe ^^;)
Aubrey...I love you..and I MEAN IT!!!!! I can't bear to even read about how things are for you. I feel so bad that i can't do anything, i really wish i could. and if there is ANYTHING i can help with, do, say, or whatever, please...no DO...call me, tell me, use some form of communication!! i don't want things to be so bad for you, or anyone. I REALLY WISH that i could take all of your problems away, to make life enjoyable, fun, relaxed, and not so burdened. but i can't do that, i'm no god! but i want to help in anyway! You are such an amazing person. You have taught me so much. and I TRUELY appreciate all you have done for me; for being there, for giving me a shoulder to cry on, for being my friend, for loving me for who i am, for not trying to change me, for caring, for having fun with me, for letting me get to know you, for letting me into your life, and for giving your friendship and suport! you are truely awesome!
Cameron...i miss you. I miss your outgoing personality, your love, your friendship. i want to tell you I love you. you have been so amazing to me. I am so fortunate to have been able to meet and get to know you. You make life seem so easy, i have never seen you loose your cool, or get overwhelmed with anything. I have only ever seen you succeed..and that's awesome. You try soo hard for things, you work so hard, and you have endurance and perserverence. You are such an example in my life. I have been thinking about you lately, and all of the things we've done..like the ice cream contests and such. I miss it all. You...you...are such a comfort to have in my life, to know i have a friend like you just makes my day! And even though we never talk, just know i love and think about you...and hope our friendship lasts through time!!!!!!
Jenni...You are truely an inspiration. you have helped me so much, and have taught me not to be so afraid. you have let me be myself and still be loved. i love you! i can't tell you how amazed i am at you...and how jealous i've been at times...but i know i shouldn't. i know that you are amazing, and that you have friends, but i realize, so do i. I have all these amazing friends and don't know how or why i deserve such people in my life, but i'm soo glad you are apart of it! i don't know how i would have gotten through some things with out you or your family. you are amazing!
Mike...gus gus...you are soo cool!! I love coming to your house every week and seeing you, then having the most random conversations, and leaving with a smile on my face! you really let me be myself, and i appreciate that soo much. You are honestly like my older brother, and i've always wanted that! i know i can trust you, and i love you! i have been given permission by my parents (all 3) that i could marry you!! hehe...and i love it! i want to thank you for all you've done for me and my life! You are so amazing! don't ever change!
Ani...our early morning chats, sob sessions, and laughs. it's all amazing. you are such a person. i can't tell you how much you mean to me, and how much you have really truely helped me. eventhough we only had about 3 1/2 hours of sleep, it was all worth it. You have taught me soo much and really have helped me grow. I love you and couldn't have made it through parts of life with out you. keep up what you are doing, and know i will always be here for you!!!!!!! i'm always your friend, you can come run away to my house anytime!! *_- hehe! I love you!
Everyone else...(I dont mean not to give you a personal message, it's just that i don't have very much time left) I love you all!! I dont know if i would be living with out you. You have all taught me sooo much. you have shown me more love and friendship than i deserve, or could ever have hoped for. You are all soo amazing, and i look up to each and every one of you!
I could go on talking about myself and my stupid problems. but i don't want to. I don't want life to be so down...why can't we all just be happy...haha yeah right!
it's not for me to decide! I think about everyone all of the time and what we used to have...i just want to think it's been put on pause until everyone is back together, but then i realized that it will never be the same! but there is nothing i can do and i hate it! I want to do something, but i'm either incapable, or too lazy. And I want to change that, but i don't know how! and that bugs me...arg..
*confused, angry, sad, depressed, determined, hopeless, and wanting something you can't have kind of look*
I am going to try harder to be better. I'm going to not be so lazy. I'm going to call all of you. I'm going to plan a get together, and everyone must come. I'm going to change the world!! *almost evil but sincere laugh*
I can't do everything, and i know it. No one person can...but i will try. I will TRY!!
*starts to cry*
-Mole
Lou...you are my hero. I love you. TRUELY!! I don't know what i can say to tell how amazing you are! i can't express it...i just can't...it's too much. you've saved my life more than once, i owe you big...and even if i didn't i would pick you as a friend!!! you are cirtianly not just a tag along...NO WAY!! you are way more than that...and if no one else thinks so, just know that i love you, you are my friend, and i would never concider you just a tag along (plus, i know how you feel, i'm no in highschool either) call me, we NEED to hang out. I mean it! (763-7790...you can write it down for the 6th time in your house!! hehe ^^;)
Aubrey...I love you..and I MEAN IT!!!!! I can't bear to even read about how things are for you. I feel so bad that i can't do anything, i really wish i could. and if there is ANYTHING i can help with, do, say, or whatever, please...no DO...call me, tell me, use some form of communication!! i don't want things to be so bad for you, or anyone. I REALLY WISH that i could take all of your problems away, to make life enjoyable, fun, relaxed, and not so burdened. but i can't do that, i'm no god! but i want to help in anyway! You are such an amazing person. You have taught me so much. and I TRUELY appreciate all you have done for me; for being there, for giving me a shoulder to cry on, for being my friend, for loving me for who i am, for not trying to change me, for caring, for having fun with me, for letting me get to know you, for letting me into your life, and for giving your friendship and suport! you are truely awesome!
Cameron...i miss you. I miss your outgoing personality, your love, your friendship. i want to tell you I love you. you have been so amazing to me. I am so fortunate to have been able to meet and get to know you. You make life seem so easy, i have never seen you loose your cool, or get overwhelmed with anything. I have only ever seen you succeed..and that's awesome. You try soo hard for things, you work so hard, and you have endurance and perserverence. You are such an example in my life. I have been thinking about you lately, and all of the things we've done..like the ice cream contests and such. I miss it all. You...you...are such a comfort to have in my life, to know i have a friend like you just makes my day! And even though we never talk, just know i love and think about you...and hope our friendship lasts through time!!!!!!
Jenni...You are truely an inspiration. you have helped me so much, and have taught me not to be so afraid. you have let me be myself and still be loved. i love you! i can't tell you how amazed i am at you...and how jealous i've been at times...but i know i shouldn't. i know that you are amazing, and that you have friends, but i realize, so do i. I have all these amazing friends and don't know how or why i deserve such people in my life, but i'm soo glad you are apart of it! i don't know how i would have gotten through some things with out you or your family. you are amazing!
Mike...gus gus...you are soo cool!! I love coming to your house every week and seeing you, then having the most random conversations, and leaving with a smile on my face! you really let me be myself, and i appreciate that soo much. You are honestly like my older brother, and i've always wanted that! i know i can trust you, and i love you! i have been given permission by my parents (all 3) that i could marry you!! hehe...and i love it! i want to thank you for all you've done for me and my life! You are so amazing! don't ever change!
Ani...our early morning chats, sob sessions, and laughs. it's all amazing. you are such a person. i can't tell you how much you mean to me, and how much you have really truely helped me. eventhough we only had about 3 1/2 hours of sleep, it was all worth it. You have taught me soo much and really have helped me grow. I love you and couldn't have made it through parts of life with out you. keep up what you are doing, and know i will always be here for you!!!!!!! i'm always your friend, you can come run away to my house anytime!! *_- hehe! I love you!
Everyone else...(I dont mean not to give you a personal message, it's just that i don't have very much time left) I love you all!! I dont know if i would be living with out you. You have all taught me sooo much. you have shown me more love and friendship than i deserve, or could ever have hoped for. You are all soo amazing, and i look up to each and every one of you!
I could go on talking about myself and my stupid problems. but i don't want to. I don't want life to be so down...why can't we all just be happy...haha yeah right!
it's not for me to decide! I think about everyone all of the time and what we used to have...i just want to think it's been put on pause until everyone is back together, but then i realized that it will never be the same! but there is nothing i can do and i hate it! I want to do something, but i'm either incapable, or too lazy. And I want to change that, but i don't know how! and that bugs me...arg..
*confused, angry, sad, depressed, determined, hopeless, and wanting something you can't have kind of look*
I am going to try harder to be better. I'm going to not be so lazy. I'm going to call all of you. I'm going to plan a get together, and everyone must come. I'm going to change the world!! *almost evil but sincere laugh*
I can't do everything, and i know it. No one person can...but i will try. I will TRY!!
*starts to cry*
-Mole
Tuesday, March 23, 2004
...
This is a few bits and pieces of a rant that's been going on in my head for the past several weeks so you'll have to forgive me if it's a little weird and doesn't make the slightest bit of sense.
I really haven't been feeling well for the past couple of weeks. I've been spending so much time and energy on my homework and after school activities that it's been draining me of all the energy and life I have left. It's a constant struggle for me to resist the urge to throw up my hands and say I can't do it anymore. I don't want to quit, it's not like me to give up on anything when I've set my mind to it. There are a few things however that I'm having trouble holding onto. I feel like I'm drifting apart from every single person I've ever had the privilege to call my friend and I'm powerless to stop it. Every time I'm near any of them I get the immpresion that I'm just another accessory, that I used to be fun but now, like a childhood toy, everyone's too old and mature to busy themselves with the likes of me. I'm not a child, I have responsibilitys that a lot of parents don't have and I deal with them. Who knows, my childlike attitude may just be my way of coping.
*sighs* I hate pity in every form, self inflicted or otherwise and I hate what it does to people. I realize that all I'm doing right now is having a big pity party and that tomorrow I will probably be completely fine and will probably scold myself for being such a baby, but it still doesn't change how I feel now.
I've never seriously considered suicide or self mutilation as a way of ridding myself of my problems and never will. Maybe I'm just too selfish or self serving and just can't see what's in it for me, maybe I'm scared of taking that much control of my life, but it will never happen. Yet even with that knowledge I still wonder what would happen if I did. Would anyone even notice, or more realistically, would anyone, after coming to my funeral, comforting my family and having their fill of potluck, even think about me after that? If I were to get in a car accident would anyone come visit me in the hospital, hoping I might wake up? How long would it be before only my family comes? How long before my parents finally decide to "pull the plug" as I'll never wake up?
This is never going to come to anything, I'll be fine tomorrow, and as no one is even going to read this I'm ending it before the gaping whole in my chest is big enough to drive a car through.
I really haven't been feeling well for the past couple of weeks. I've been spending so much time and energy on my homework and after school activities that it's been draining me of all the energy and life I have left. It's a constant struggle for me to resist the urge to throw up my hands and say I can't do it anymore. I don't want to quit, it's not like me to give up on anything when I've set my mind to it. There are a few things however that I'm having trouble holding onto. I feel like I'm drifting apart from every single person I've ever had the privilege to call my friend and I'm powerless to stop it. Every time I'm near any of them I get the immpresion that I'm just another accessory, that I used to be fun but now, like a childhood toy, everyone's too old and mature to busy themselves with the likes of me. I'm not a child, I have responsibilitys that a lot of parents don't have and I deal with them. Who knows, my childlike attitude may just be my way of coping.
*sighs* I hate pity in every form, self inflicted or otherwise and I hate what it does to people. I realize that all I'm doing right now is having a big pity party and that tomorrow I will probably be completely fine and will probably scold myself for being such a baby, but it still doesn't change how I feel now.
I've never seriously considered suicide or self mutilation as a way of ridding myself of my problems and never will. Maybe I'm just too selfish or self serving and just can't see what's in it for me, maybe I'm scared of taking that much control of my life, but it will never happen. Yet even with that knowledge I still wonder what would happen if I did. Would anyone even notice, or more realistically, would anyone, after coming to my funeral, comforting my family and having their fill of potluck, even think about me after that? If I were to get in a car accident would anyone come visit me in the hospital, hoping I might wake up? How long would it be before only my family comes? How long before my parents finally decide to "pull the plug" as I'll never wake up?
This is never going to come to anything, I'll be fine tomorrow, and as no one is even going to read this I'm ending it before the gaping whole in my chest is big enough to drive a car through.
Tuesday, March 9, 2004
So, this is me
I thought I'd start out my Journal with a little quiz that was sent to me via e-mail.
************* YOU ***************
1. What is your full name? Anna Lei McPherson (My friends call me Ani)
2. Birthday : Oct 23
3. Age: 16
4. Gender: Female
5. Social security: I feel like I'm being interrogated
6. Where do you live? Utah
7. What school do you attend? Lone Peak High
8. Siblings ? 9, Me, Shelli, Kaiti, Kyli, Daniel, Joseph, Samuel, Miri and Thomas.
9. Pets: 1 Dog, 3 Cats, 2 Birds, and the 9 Sheep that are on my desktop http://www.geocities.com/SiliconValley/Way/9096/index2.htm
10. Zodiac Sign: Scorpio or Libra (my birthday borders both of them)
11. Righty or Lefty: Righty
*********YOUR LOOKS*********
12. Hair color: Blonde
13. Eye color: Green-hazel (they change depending on what I'm wearing or what mood I'm in)
14. height: 5,4
15. Do u wear contacts or glasses? Contacts
16. Do you have any piercing? In my ears
17. Where do you want more if you do? Don't want any more
18. Do you have a tattoo? Only the pen kind (I have a habit of drawing on my hands and arms)
19. If so what and where? *looks up* whatever I feel like drawing although it's most often eyes
20. Do you wear any rings? My CTR ring and my Sweet 16 ring
21. Do you have a certain fashion you follow? It's not the usual one I can tell you that
**********JUST LATELY***************
23. How are you today? Amused by my sheep
24. What pants are you wearing right now? Swishy Navy blue ones
25. What shirt are you wearing right now? My American Studies sweatshirt
26. What shoes are you wearing right now? I don't wear shoes when I'm at my computer
27. What does your hair look like at the moment? It's fwoofie
28. What song are u listening to right now? The little songs on my siblings computer games
30. How is the weather right now? It's nice... but kinda dark
31. Last person you talked to on the phone? My dad asking him to get me food
32. Last Dream you can remember? I rarely remember my dreams
33. Who are you talking to right now? My sister Shelli who's asking my advice on a paper she's writing
34. What time is it? 7:00
*********More about YOU!**************
35. What are the last four digits of your phone number? Ok, now I feel like I'm being stalked
36. If u were a crayon, what color would you be? I'd be one of those multi-color ones that change color as you draw with it
37. Have you ever almost died? only when I saw how long this quiz was
38. Do u like the person that sent u this? Of course
39. How do u eat an Oreo? There's a method to it?!?! I'm doomed!
40. Who's your best friend? I think the term "best" friend is degrading. I have lots of friends and wouldn't want to sell myself short of their friendships by favoring one over the other
41. What's the next CD you are going to buy? A blank one so I can make my own CD
42. What's the best advice ever given to you? Never eat anything Lou wouldn't eat (and even then use caution)
43. Have u ever won any special award? I won the Best Ani award ^^;
44. Worst sickness u ever had? The 24 hour flu at Disneyland over Christmas break. My whole family caught it and we spent half our vacation heaving all over Disneyland (we went home early)
45. What's the stupidest thing you've ever done? Broke a promise to one of my friends
46. If u could change one thing about yourself what would it be and why? If I could stop procrastinating
47. Where do you shop the most? Wal-mart, DI and Kholers
48. How many kids do you want to have? If I decide that now I know I'm not going to have that amount
49. Sons name? Tobias, Caden
50. Daughter's name? Tiana, Calista (what can I say, I like original names)
51. Do you do drugs? ... only when I'm sick O_o
52. Do you drink? I love liquid
53. What kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use? A generic Costco brand ^^;
54. What sport do you hate the most? basketball
55. What are you most scared of? Misunderstandings
56. How many TV's do you have in your house? 3
57. Do you have your own? *sniffles* nope
58. Do you have your own phone line? *sighs* once again no
59. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? Well my cat sleeps with me once in a while...
60. Have you ever broken/sprained/fractured a bone? Nope, I have my mom's bones of steel
61. Who do you dream about? My friends, my family, random dream people
62. Who do you tell your dreams to? Anyone who will listen when I actually have one to tell
63. Who's the loudest friend you have? ...All of them
64. Who's the quietest friend? I don't think my friends count as quiet
65. Is cheerleading a sport? Only if smiling and acting like a snob is a sport
66. How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop? 2-5 usually I lick it, then take a bite, lick it, then take a bite, etc. It doesn't last very long that way
67. Which came first, the chicken or the egg? Chicken
************YOU and LOVE**************
68. Do you have a girlfriend or boyfriend? Lots of them, but none that I'm "going out" with
69. Do you have a crush? Not at this moment
70. Who is your crush? *looks up*
71. Did you send this to your crush?*looks up and wonders when this string of questions is going to end*
72. Where would you like to go on your honeymoon? Somewhere I've never been.
73. Have you already planned out your wedding? No and I laugh at some of my friends who have everything about their wedding planned except for the groom
74. Do you find yourself attractive? ... is this a trick question
75. Do you find yourself ugly? ... *looks up*
76. Do others find you attractive? No clue
**************ON GUYS FOR GIRLS TO FILL OUT (for girls only)*********
*as a side note I'm only filling this part out as I was ordered too*
77. Boxers or briefs?... moving on
78. Curly or straight hair? Straight
79. Tall or short? medium
80. Six pack or muscular arms? You mean I can't have both?
81. Good or bad guys? Good guys
82. Hat or no hat? If it's a cool hat then yes
83. tan or no tan? Tans are bad for your skin
84. Dimples or not? Depends on the guy
85. Stubble or neatly shaven? neatly shaven
86. What sport should he play? He should be in drama
87. Sandals or shoes? shoes
88. Dark or light hair? Again, depends on the guy
89. Dark, light, or crazy cool eyes? Cool eyes
90. Accent or no accent: Accent all the way!
91. Glasses: Sun glasses ^^;
92. Shy or outgoing: outgoing
93. Funny or always cool: Funny
*94-108 deleted as I am not male and did not want to answer the other questions*
***********Pick One: THIS OR THAT**********
109. Lights on/off? On, it's much harder to read people's minds when I can't see them
110. sun or rain? Rain (you just can't beat that rainy smell)
111. Mickey D's (McDonalds) or BK (Burger King)? Burger King (I don't trust McDonalds)
112. Do u like scary or happy movies better? Happy ^^; A good scare is always fun but give me a comedy any day
113. Backstreet Boys or NSYNC? *pictured herself screaming like a fangirl and shudders* neither
114. On the phone or in person? In person, emotions are easier to read that way
115. Paper or plastic? Hm... What would Bush choose?
116. Sausage or pepperoni? Both ^^;
117. Summer or winter? Winter, you can always put more clothing on
118. Hershey's Hugs or kisses? Hugs Pure chocolate goodness in two delicious flavors ^^;
119. Chocolate or white milk? White
120. Root Beer or Dr. Pepper? Root beer
121. Glass half full or half empty? Depends on if I've just poured stuff into the glass or poured stuff out of it
122. Tape or DVD? DVD all the way
123. Cats or Dog? Just one dog?
124. Mud or Jell-O wrestling? They have Jell-O wrestling?!?! SW33T!
125. Vanilla or Chocolate? Vanilla for ice cream, otherwise Milk chocolate is the only way to go 126. Skiing or Boarding: As I've never done either of them...
127. Day or night: Night
128. Cake or pie? Cake
129. Sunset or sunrise: Sunset
****************Your FADS****************
130. Color: Blue
131. food: Just about anything edible (I'll try anything once)
132. Fast Food? Arbys
133. Candy? Chewie spree
134 .Beverage? Shirley Temple (strawberry sprite)
135. Ice Cream Flavor? Vanilla with chocolate and caramel
136. Sport? Volleyball or soccer
137. Animal? African wild dog (my furry persona)
138. number? 5
139. Radio Station? Anything that's on when I get into the car
140. Band? If they play swing, I'm a fan
141. Fav. Actor or Actress? *Bows* me and my friends
142. Fav. day of the year? Christmas
143. Fav. month? August
144. Tv show? Who's line is it anyways
145. Store? DI and Wal-mart
146. Scent? Vanilla
147. Teacher? I like most of my teachers although there are those few... *CoughTeusherCough*
148. Board Game? Catch phrase, Imagine if
149. Saying?
**************HAVE you EVER**************
150. Drank? Yes I'm very fond of water myself ^^;
151. Ever gotten dumped? In order to be dumped you have to be "picked up"
152. Broke the law? *glances around sheepishly* ... No...
153. Ran from the cops? *looks up*
154. Stole something? Well not necessarily stole, things tend to migrate to my room over time (particularly anything shiney)
155. Run away? Yup, but then I got bored as no one was out looking for me
156. Eaten a bug? Not on purpose
157. Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? That sort of thing doesn't work well on my parents (although I have tried it before and almost succeeded)
******One a Final Note***********
158. Do you like filling these out? Yup, I like reading them too
159. How many people are you sending this to? I'm posting it instead of sending it so people can read it of their own free will (BTW if anyone wants the original copy with the blank questions I'd be happy to oblige)
160. Do u want your friends to write back? It might be kind of hard for them to do so but sure
161. who is least likely to respond? Anyone who doesn't read it ^^;
162. Who is most likely to respond? Depends on who's the most bored
163. What is the first thing that comes to mind? This is a freaking long quiz
164. What time is it now? 8:40
Well, thats me, and if you lived through that and read it all you have amazing will power. Go you!!
************* YOU ***************
1. What is your full name? Anna Lei McPherson (My friends call me Ani)
2. Birthday : Oct 23
3. Age: 16
4. Gender: Female
5. Social security: I feel like I'm being interrogated
6. Where do you live? Utah
7. What school do you attend? Lone Peak High
8. Siblings ? 9, Me, Shelli, Kaiti, Kyli, Daniel, Joseph, Samuel, Miri and Thomas.
9. Pets: 1 Dog, 3 Cats, 2 Birds, and the 9 Sheep that are on my desktop http://www.geocities.com/SiliconValley/Way/9096/index2.htm
10. Zodiac Sign: Scorpio or Libra (my birthday borders both of them)
11. Righty or Lefty: Righty
*********YOUR LOOKS*********
12. Hair color: Blonde
13. Eye color: Green-hazel (they change depending on what I'm wearing or what mood I'm in)
14. height: 5,4
15. Do u wear contacts or glasses? Contacts
16. Do you have any piercing? In my ears
17. Where do you want more if you do? Don't want any more
18. Do you have a tattoo? Only the pen kind (I have a habit of drawing on my hands and arms)
19. If so what and where? *looks up* whatever I feel like drawing although it's most often eyes
20. Do you wear any rings? My CTR ring and my Sweet 16 ring
21. Do you have a certain fashion you follow? It's not the usual one I can tell you that
**********JUST LATELY***************
23. How are you today? Amused by my sheep
24. What pants are you wearing right now? Swishy Navy blue ones
25. What shirt are you wearing right now? My American Studies sweatshirt
26. What shoes are you wearing right now? I don't wear shoes when I'm at my computer
27. What does your hair look like at the moment? It's fwoofie
28. What song are u listening to right now? The little songs on my siblings computer games
30. How is the weather right now? It's nice... but kinda dark
31. Last person you talked to on the phone? My dad asking him to get me food
32. Last Dream you can remember? I rarely remember my dreams
33. Who are you talking to right now? My sister Shelli who's asking my advice on a paper she's writing
34. What time is it? 7:00
*********More about YOU!**************
35. What are the last four digits of your phone number? Ok, now I feel like I'm being stalked
36. If u were a crayon, what color would you be? I'd be one of those multi-color ones that change color as you draw with it
37. Have you ever almost died? only when I saw how long this quiz was
38. Do u like the person that sent u this? Of course
39. How do u eat an Oreo? There's a method to it?!?! I'm doomed!
40. Who's your best friend? I think the term "best" friend is degrading. I have lots of friends and wouldn't want to sell myself short of their friendships by favoring one over the other
41. What's the next CD you are going to buy? A blank one so I can make my own CD
42. What's the best advice ever given to you? Never eat anything Lou wouldn't eat (and even then use caution)
43. Have u ever won any special award? I won the Best Ani award ^^;
44. Worst sickness u ever had? The 24 hour flu at Disneyland over Christmas break. My whole family caught it and we spent half our vacation heaving all over Disneyland (we went home early)
45. What's the stupidest thing you've ever done? Broke a promise to one of my friends
46. If u could change one thing about yourself what would it be and why? If I could stop procrastinating
47. Where do you shop the most? Wal-mart, DI and Kholers
48. How many kids do you want to have? If I decide that now I know I'm not going to have that amount
49. Sons name? Tobias, Caden
50. Daughter's name? Tiana, Calista (what can I say, I like original names)
51. Do you do drugs? ... only when I'm sick O_o
52. Do you drink? I love liquid
53. What kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use? A generic Costco brand ^^;
54. What sport do you hate the most? basketball
55. What are you most scared of? Misunderstandings
56. How many TV's do you have in your house? 3
57. Do you have your own? *sniffles* nope
58. Do you have your own phone line? *sighs* once again no
59. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? Well my cat sleeps with me once in a while...
60. Have you ever broken/sprained/fractured a bone? Nope, I have my mom's bones of steel
61. Who do you dream about? My friends, my family, random dream people
62. Who do you tell your dreams to? Anyone who will listen when I actually have one to tell
63. Who's the loudest friend you have? ...All of them
64. Who's the quietest friend? I don't think my friends count as quiet
65. Is cheerleading a sport? Only if smiling and acting like a snob is a sport
66. How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop? 2-5 usually I lick it, then take a bite, lick it, then take a bite, etc. It doesn't last very long that way
67. Which came first, the chicken or the egg? Chicken
************YOU and LOVE**************
68. Do you have a girlfriend or boyfriend? Lots of them, but none that I'm "going out" with
69. Do you have a crush? Not at this moment
70. Who is your crush? *looks up*
71. Did you send this to your crush?*looks up and wonders when this string of questions is going to end*
72. Where would you like to go on your honeymoon? Somewhere I've never been.
73. Have you already planned out your wedding? No and I laugh at some of my friends who have everything about their wedding planned except for the groom
74. Do you find yourself attractive? ... is this a trick question
75. Do you find yourself ugly? ... *looks up*
76. Do others find you attractive? No clue
**************ON GUYS FOR GIRLS TO FILL OUT (for girls only)*********
*as a side note I'm only filling this part out as I was ordered too*
77. Boxers or briefs?... moving on
78. Curly or straight hair? Straight
79. Tall or short? medium
80. Six pack or muscular arms? You mean I can't have both?
81. Good or bad guys? Good guys
82. Hat or no hat? If it's a cool hat then yes
83. tan or no tan? Tans are bad for your skin
84. Dimples or not? Depends on the guy
85. Stubble or neatly shaven? neatly shaven
86. What sport should he play? He should be in drama
87. Sandals or shoes? shoes
88. Dark or light hair? Again, depends on the guy
89. Dark, light, or crazy cool eyes? Cool eyes
90. Accent or no accent: Accent all the way!
91. Glasses: Sun glasses ^^;
92. Shy or outgoing: outgoing
93. Funny or always cool: Funny
*94-108 deleted as I am not male and did not want to answer the other questions*
***********Pick One: THIS OR THAT**********
109. Lights on/off? On, it's much harder to read people's minds when I can't see them
110. sun or rain? Rain (you just can't beat that rainy smell)
111. Mickey D's (McDonalds) or BK (Burger King)? Burger King (I don't trust McDonalds)
112. Do u like scary or happy movies better? Happy ^^; A good scare is always fun but give me a comedy any day
113. Backstreet Boys or NSYNC? *pictured herself screaming like a fangirl and shudders* neither
114. On the phone or in person? In person, emotions are easier to read that way
115. Paper or plastic? Hm... What would Bush choose?
116. Sausage or pepperoni? Both ^^;
117. Summer or winter? Winter, you can always put more clothing on
118. Hershey's Hugs or kisses? Hugs Pure chocolate goodness in two delicious flavors ^^;
119. Chocolate or white milk? White
120. Root Beer or Dr. Pepper? Root beer
121. Glass half full or half empty? Depends on if I've just poured stuff into the glass or poured stuff out of it
122. Tape or DVD? DVD all the way
123. Cats or Dog? Just one dog?
124. Mud or Jell-O wrestling? They have Jell-O wrestling?!?! SW33T!
125. Vanilla or Chocolate? Vanilla for ice cream, otherwise Milk chocolate is the only way to go 126. Skiing or Boarding: As I've never done either of them...
127. Day or night: Night
128. Cake or pie? Cake
129. Sunset or sunrise: Sunset
****************Your FADS****************
130. Color: Blue
131. food: Just about anything edible (I'll try anything once)
132. Fast Food? Arbys
133. Candy? Chewie spree
134 .Beverage? Shirley Temple (strawberry sprite)
135. Ice Cream Flavor? Vanilla with chocolate and caramel
136. Sport? Volleyball or soccer
137. Animal? African wild dog (my furry persona)
138. number? 5
139. Radio Station? Anything that's on when I get into the car
140. Band? If they play swing, I'm a fan
141. Fav. Actor or Actress? *Bows* me and my friends
142. Fav. day of the year? Christmas
143. Fav. month? August
144. Tv show? Who's line is it anyways
145. Store? DI and Wal-mart
146. Scent? Vanilla
147. Teacher? I like most of my teachers although there are those few... *CoughTeusherCough*
148. Board Game? Catch phrase, Imagine if
149. Saying?
**************HAVE you EVER**************
150. Drank? Yes I'm very fond of water myself ^^;
151. Ever gotten dumped? In order to be dumped you have to be "picked up"
152. Broke the law? *glances around sheepishly* ... No...
153. Ran from the cops? *looks up*
154. Stole something? Well not necessarily stole, things tend to migrate to my room over time (particularly anything shiney)
155. Run away? Yup, but then I got bored as no one was out looking for me
156. Eaten a bug? Not on purpose
157. Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? That sort of thing doesn't work well on my parents (although I have tried it before and almost succeeded)
******One a Final Note***********
158. Do you like filling these out? Yup, I like reading them too
159. How many people are you sending this to? I'm posting it instead of sending it so people can read it of their own free will (BTW if anyone wants the original copy with the blank questions I'd be happy to oblige)
160. Do u want your friends to write back? It might be kind of hard for them to do so but sure
161. who is least likely to respond? Anyone who doesn't read it ^^;
162. Who is most likely to respond? Depends on who's the most bored
163. What is the first thing that comes to mind? This is a freaking long quiz
164. What time is it now? 8:40
Well, thats me, and if you lived through that and read it all you have amazing will power. Go you!!
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