Tuesday, December 14, 2004

tell me what you think of it.

Keep the Key


No one will ever know
the secrets of my soul.
Like the calm crying
of the wind on a
Fall morning’s night.

The bells of the town in the distance,
behind you,
Portraying the everlasting hour.

Walking down the long corridor,
Recalling past events,
Dwelling on regrets and pain.

The sting of it only now an imprint
that is hidden beneath a mask of joy.
Convincing myself that the
state of being called love has not
been bestowed upon me;
Though I know better than to deny it,
for it’s power is sacred.

Each step vibrating within the depths of my soul,
compelling me to go forward in the night.
The once so constant paranoia has now been
replaced with comfort,
for fear is no longer dreaded.

Again I waver,
staggering for the moment
when life takes its devastating blow.

Waiting. That is what composes my life,
the music always to be played.
Changes in tempo and dynamic,
the melody remaining the same.

Darkness. Cold. Hate.
No.
Live as though you were to die tomorrow.

I contain so much inexpressible love
to and for so many people.
They will never comprehend it.
Regardless, it’s there.

The secrets of life,
locked away until death.
Confusing the masses with its mystery.

They may be secrets,
guarded by a lock,
but love is the key,
and honestly living that key
is the secret.

Sunday, December 5, 2004

I've also discovered that I have 83 People on my chatting buddy list and 59 online comics that I check daily.
...
I think I need to go outside more often.
Yeah, so I've been sick since last wednesday.

-I'm bored.
+I watched TV a couple nights ago for the first time in forever, which was very relaxing.
-I missed a tournament on Friday due to my sickness.
-I also missed a party on saturday because I thought I was well enough to go to the Debate tournament.
-I also missed a Christmas party.
+I make some dang good Homemade Chicken Noodle Soup.
-My siblings agreed with me on that point and kept eating it all, leaving none for the sick people in my house.
+I think I've spent as much time asleep the past few days as I've spent awake.
-I haven't done any of the homework I need to makeup for the classes I missed.
-Sick=not feeling very good.
-I lost my voice this morning and when I try to shout it turns into this weird screechy shriek.
-Shelli and I were too sick to go to church this morning.
+I'm planning on watching much TV to make up for it.

yeah... Sick = -+